Death is a subject that hasn’t been too prominent in my life thus far. I haven’t had anyone close to me pass away yet, and maybe that plays a factor to my uncomfortable feeling I have towards it. To start typing this has been hard, because my emotional state is so numb to the idea of death.
In this life I live, I have a strong need to tell people my appreciation for them. Of who they are and what they do when they do it courageously. The people who live wholeheartedly with grace and creativity. I learned a hard lesson yesterday when it hit me, death sometimes can get in the way of those moments, and it robbed me on my happiness, because I lacked in expressing myself to a fellow human being.
This past year I had the opportunity a few times to connect with Pumpkin, on stage and off stage, but 2 days ago this all changed. The words I wanted to speak will never be able to be spoken to the person I wanted to give gratuitous expression to, towards his art and his existence. Sadly, he died in a car crash on March 25th, on his way to the next festival.
I had always put it off and thought I would just wait for a better time to connect with him. Now that time is gone, and my heart hurts.
From this saddening passing of Pumpkin I am in the middle of learning important life lessons. The man that I had never met has now taught me one of my biggest lessons in life ---> To not let the opportunity pass itself without acknowledging another human being in their element of happiness, grace and vulnerability. I feel so humbled and so shaken all at the same time to be soaking in this lesson of life.
I’m feeling the feels within the community today. Many blessing to all!
Nicholas Alvarado, I may be too late, but thank you for your many tributes of music and to the memories that are blissfully engraved into my mind from your presence.