Project 365

#365ByBrie


 

December 2014


 

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December 4th 2014

LynnwoodWA

~ 364 To Go ~

Today's date has no significant meaning to me, whatsoever. After failing to continue with my last project 365, I have been been feeling equally excited as much as I am dreading it. Last year I stopped half way through, and though at first I was able to have more time for myself and felt free from it, I began to have a feeling of disappointment towards my own art. I felt like a failure, especially to the people who gave me encouragement. In the time since then, I did do some very important things for myself. I'm traveling, I'm getting more into video and learning from it, and I have collected some very special memories of people and places. A still a day will be a challenge, but this time I know what I am up against.

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December 5th 2014

LynnwoodWA

 

~ Good Sign Staement  ~

"Its a little emotional for me. this sign, and its words. It really helped me, and I know it helps a lot of people. That's a reason why it goes all over the country, there has to be a reason. I want to thank everyone who carries the sign and puts it out there. It gives a message to people who are having a tough time in their life, or people that just need a smile." - McKenna - Aka, my little sister.

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December 6th 2014

~ What makes you happy? ~

Seriously, I love asking that question to people. That question is something that makes me happy. When someone is sharing a piece of themselves with me, about what they love doing, that gives me the chance to see a glimmer of their joy. I took down to actually writing on paper with ink about what makes me happy. One rule, fill in as much space as I could, without making anything orderly. No use of lines, just write it down. There were some things like the obvious to me that I wrote down first – Photography, Adventures, Writing, Dogs, The Market, and Wild Child. As the page still had space I was pleasantly surprised about how good it made me feel to use that brain power for positive thoughts towards myself. Things like, being nose deep in a good book, and making a fire still makes me feel comforted. Deja vu, because it throws people off, in an extremely bizarre harmless way, and long hugs with someone you mutually trust, love, and understand. Towards the end, more connections were coming through, and I really started to think about the important parts of happiness I live for, which is having control over my life, when I want a bunch of excitement to overcome my day to day, until when I am burnt out and want to sit and read a book alone for awhile. Its finding inspiring people along the journey and thanking the universe for all of it. I love the life I have, because, it makes me happy. 

So, I ask you to ask yourself, What makes you happy?

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December 7th 2014

Wooinville, WA

Change is Here ~

After driving over 7,000 miles this summer, Thelma had some work she needed done. From being stranded in a Denny's parking lot overnight in Missoula, Montana, to having a part bust under the engine on us, in the kootenays of Canada, and all with barley any money in the bank. Thelma has been through tougher times than me at times. Driving everyday seems to wear on me in certain moments. 

There are times when I don't feel comfortable enough to be grounded, and I just continue on the road, and I tell myself "why do you have to be so restless", that I'd like to overcome, but sometimes, just cruising is what distresses me. And how boring would it be to just go round and round? Traveling in general, makes my mind cruise at a constant speed, its ongoing. 

The last time I got an oil change was at this same place, in Woodinville, Washington. I went back to the same place I last got my oil change at because I thought it was funny that I was working in the same area, and needed another oil change at the same time. Like the time before, this was something that needed change, and this time I did it just so I could get it over with. 

Maybe its another sign to change something that's been a challenge.

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December 8th 2014

Another Departure ~

As I sit in the front row, with a view of the drive to Portland ahead of me, I realize how much coming and going I've been doing in Seattle. It's like a magnet. One I can't detach from. 

The last few times I had been back home, I hadn't had the urge to go out to a bar and have fun. After buying a Bolt Bus ticket out of the city, I did my ritual of “Find a fun bar with fun people”. This time it was a Seattle staple bar in the Belltown neighborhood, "Shorty's” 


If you care about what Anthony Bourdain thinks, he describes it as “"A legendary spot that draws all types of personalities, from professional cooks to hipster douchebags." Bourdain bolts shortly after a random dude asks him, "Is there any way you would hold, like, a knife to my throat?”

It's been a habit of mine to go out the night before my departure. Its a habit that I am not trying to break. It gives me a piece of the city to carry with me the next day, like right now, on the bolt bus out of the city once again. 

I had a fun time playing pinball, I had some good company, met some new faces, and had a few drinks, and my friends offered me to stay at their place at the end of the night a few blocks over.

So the next time your at Shorty's, go play some Wizard Of Oz pinball for me. 

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December 9th 2014

~ ANAHATA ~

If you know Emery, you know that he has a green retro van with bubble windows and a license plate that reads “ANAHATA”, which is the name of the heart chakra. Anahata means "unhurt, unstruck and unbeaten" according to Hindu Yogic, Shakta and Buddhist Tantric traditions.

A few hours after this shot was taken,when I stepped onto the Bolt Bus on King and James, stress and anxiety became my new travel companions for the day.

There had been a guy on board threatening a couple, lone travelers, and even a baby. After a cop stopped and pulled over, the kid was allowed back on, but had to sit closer to the front. I was in the front row, and had an open seat, but the bus driver was nice to me, and put him a few rows behind him. We arrived a few nerve ticking hours later. 

I talked to the driver, gave him my information of the footage I got, and went to head to the next destination. That was until I realized my wallet was gone. 

I made my way back to the stop 20 minutes later, nothing, I call the bus station. I have two options. 1. Send them an e-mail about the lost item. 2. Make my way to the station, see what they could do for me there. 

Me and my overly packed pack, were now going to go on a walk to the station, a few miles out. This was going to give me enough time to freak out about my life, and berate myself on my countless mistakes I seem to constantly have. On top of all that, it started to rain. Hard. There was no cover anywhere, and all businesses were closed. If my makeup hadn't turned my eyes into a raccoon resemblance, nobody would have seen my tears falling from my face.

Once I got there, they unlocked the bus, let me on board to check it out. What do you know?! Nothing. The security guy let me check some lost item bin. Nothing. There was nothing more they could do at this point, nor I, so I sat down on the station floor where the other 50 people were doing. Except they all had a place they were going. I was stuck.

I was on my knees on the cold stone ground when I started tossing everything out of my pack. Not thinking I would find it, but then it happened. I felt it. I pulled it out. I dropped everything and wept, now tears of joy.

I sat there for a few minutes thinking about the chaos I had just gone through. What I put myself in. Not how it could have been prevented, but how I could have helped myself, not becoming Unhurt, Unstruck, and Unbeaten. 

Today I open up my Heart chakra. Anahata, Anahata, Anahata.

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December 10th 2014

 

Hazelnut fact ~

The hazelnut is unique in that it blooms and pollinates in the middle of winter. Go enjoy some fresh hazelnuts.

Another fact - These are nutmeg, not hazelnuts. 

 

 

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December 11th 2014

Seattle ---> Austin

Before Sunrise ~ 

I had an early flight out of Portland. My flight to Austin, had a layover in San Francisco, where unfortunately, that meant delays all day. A storm, that was being named “The storm of the decade” was going to blanket San Francisco, and the surrounding areas. After flying into the storm, and getting to the airport, my lay over turned into 3 hours. Flying out on my second flight, was less tense, from the first flight. I took this shot over Portland, before the storm, and right before sunrise.

“I always feel this pressure of being a strong and independent icon of womanhood, and without making it look my whole life is revolving around some guy. But loving someone, and being loved means so much to me. We always make fun of it and stuff. But isn't everything we do in life a way to be loved a little more? “

From the film "Before Sunrise" – and probably the best movie ever made. 

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December 12th 2014

Austin, Texas

~ Meeting my blood bond ~


When I was 8 years old, I was introduced to meet one of my cousins, herself and her immediate family, who didn't come visit our side. But some random summer I was told that they were coming to the camping trip that the family had planned, knowing how bored id probably be, meeting new people would turn out to be different. With all the cousins in my family, most of them are my half cousins, and we had different grandparents, and I just didn't have a real connection with them throughout the years.

When my new cousin Taylor and I met on that camping trip, I felt like I had made a new best friend. She was my real cousin, full blood. I felt special to have someone that was like that, in my family, who was like me! We saw each other one last time shortly after that trip, and ever since then, we were out of contact. We both just lived separate lives. She mentioned she was in Austin a few months ago, and I told her if I were to be back, id like to visit her. 

This is the first picture of us in 13 years, and it was so good to just see her. When I saw her, I gleamed because she and me clicked again. I was SO happy when she mentioned “Do you remember when we were kids, and we were automatically best friends?” I was so happy that I wasn't the only one who thought that. It had not been that something I imagined. The family bond we had towards each other, was still there.

The short visit wasn't enough, and I really hope we can spend some time together again before my departure out.

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December 13th 2014

Austin, Texas

~ To see a rainbow, one has to pass a storm ~

Every time I come to Austin, synchronicity follows me around to every destination, but the trips always seem to have an ending that lingers with doubt. The first time I came to Austin, I prolonged my trip, because I wanted to leave with loving Austin. This time, I ran into a similar position, where the trip turned into a dramatic one, and not the good kind. Me and Austin need to make it right, because its a beautiful place with magical tendencies. Its a place that keeps me on my toes, and I like that.

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December 14th 2014

Austin, Texas

~ Unleash your Passion ~

The first time I came to Austin, I was inspired to do more with myself, my life, and my creativity. Today I had reflections of what makes me, me. I make hasty decisions in my life, most times I have a good sense of judgment, and the other times, I try to find what I can learn out of a bad experience. 

When I was walking to a nearby coffee shop, I stumbled across this graffiti wall that the #besomebody. team put together not too long ago. These were the first people that showed me inspiration in Austin, and then I remembered that feeling of just going for it. Just do it. Besomebody.

I told myself that I wanted to just stay, to explore, to adventure with a space I could get to know for a bit. To feel the culture, to explore, to seek to adventure in. Someplace where I could go back to and lay my tired lil sleepy head in peace.

Tomorrow morning I will not be on my booked flight back to Seattle, I will be stick around these parts for a bit long. Long enough for me to call this place home for 3 months. 

If you know and love Austin, show me. 

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December 15th 2014

Austin, Texas

~ Music Maker ~

“Life is a series of experiences, each one of which makes us bigger, even though sometimes it is hard to realize this. For the world was built to develop character, and we must learn that the setbacks and grieves which we endure help us in our marching onward” - Henry Ford

I got a project underway. Now that I don't have my guitar with me here in Austin, I was donated a guitar, one stripped from all its parts. I have these parts in a bag, and then I got the strings for it. I have never put a guitar together before, but its going to be another learning experience. I need more parts for it, but its going to be a fun learning how to put it together.

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December 16th 2014

Austin Texas

~ Unexpected Kindness ~

Yesterday, I was on a hunt for a place to live. I had walked a few miles, had very little sleep the night before, and was super exhausted from when the day started. I was wearing shoes that were more like boots, with heels. Why did I do such a thing? Because I thought I was going to be a tough cookie about it. No flats, no problem, right?

After walking for over an hour to get to my first destination, I noticed that almost everyone that was out, had a bike for transportation. Austin doesn't have the hill aspect that I am used to, and its pretty spread out. I began to realize that if I am sticking around, it will probably be a good idea to get a bike while in town.

As soon as that thought formed, I bumped into these two gents. I chitchatted these fellows up about what the bike situation is here. JP and Tucker were SO awesome, and really brightened my mood. They were so kind by offering me a ride to my next destination, which I was super thrilled about.

Riding on the back of a 3 wheeler bike in Austin was well worth all that pain I had put myself through.

When was the last time something unexpectedly awesome happened to you? Did you appreciate it in the moment?

“Unexpected, undeserved, unrewarded acts of
human kindness change lives... every time.
Their effects are undeniable.”
Bill Curry

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December 17th 2014

Highway 7 , Washington -----> Portland, OR

#TBT ~ Beautiful Gloom ~ #TBT

A few weeks ago, while driving back to Portland from a little ole town named Elk Plains, WA, I had taken to the scenic drive, even though it was gloomy, but still beautiful. It took me about 10 seconds to convince myself to pull off onto the shoulder, to take the shot, to take in the moment and most importantly, reflect.

I was reminded in the past few days another new thing about myself, about the beautiful gloom that overshadows my life sometimes. I have moments in where I embrace the beautiful mess I am, that everyone else is, but have a hard time letting go of the gloom. That gloom that follows is something that is a dangerous thing to hold onto.

Everything in life changes, and we all have our own ways of dealing with how we can handle it. I am embracing the parts that once were beautiful moments, and learning to leave the gloom to rest. 

“It is so often true that whether a person carries with him an atmosphere of gloom and depression or one of confidence and courage depends on his individual outlook." - James Keller

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December 18th 2014

Austin, Texas

~ Hunger Games Austin Style ~

As I have decided to stick around Austin, I have been on the hunt for a new pad. I found a place off craigslist, I saw the room, and was told I would be contacted if I was awesome enough to meet the other roommates. Around 5 minutes after I left, I got an e-mail in my inbox.

“Brie', if your available tomorrow, would you like to come by to meet all the other roommates?”

“Yes. What time?” 

“Tomorrow at 8, does that work for you?”

“Of course, see ya then!”

Then with an unexpectedly last message....

“Just a heads up there will be a few other potential roommates there as well and I'll have some beer in the fridge.”

“Sounds like an interesting time ahead. But that's kinda what I live for. See ya then!”

So this is how Austin rolls. Hunger games style.

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December 19th 2014

Austin, Texas - 6th St

~ Monumental Moment ~

The last few days in Austin have been pretty stressful for me. I am running around, feeling kinda like I have no idea what I am doing. Why did I do this? Why did I decide to stay in Austin? Why cause stress to my life by doing a switch up? I was all caught up in my thoughts while walking down 6th street, feeling a bit flustered. 

I saw this man standing still in the middle of 6th, with his flag blowing in the wind, firmly within the 10 minutes it took me to get a shot.

There were many people who came up to him. Some gave him handshakes, some looked straight through him, others gave looks of curiosity. I was also curious myself as I was set up, and as soon as I was done, he came right up to me, and we chatted for a few.

This is Larry. He made a real impression on my heart. He told me a few stories of compassion he has encountered, and others of peoples fury of the flag. There was a police presence, and they would pass every few minutes, leaving Larry to be. At one point Larry excused himself from his position when police on horses came through. “They get spooked, they think the stripes as snakes” He told me.

I would describe Larry as a kind man. Someone who reaches into his heart to tell a story. He stands there to connect with others who have been through the times that they could only understand of each other.

There were multiple stories that Larry told me, but three that stuck out most. 

First, of a young man who cried on Larry's shoulder, right there in the streets with him after thanking Larry for his service, in front of all his friends. At which point, his friends, or not so much friends, wailed on him, as they both cried together. Another story about a guy who saw his best friend, get 'blown up' by taking what he thought, was candy from a kid, and the last one about another man in change of a group, and having to make a quick a decision whether to go left or right. Left was safe, right was not, most went right, as he went left, and that soldier was one of few who survived from the his decision, and he still finds it regrettable and wishes he should have gone to the right with them.

After listening to these powerful stories, Larry surprised me when I asked him “Why though, why do you do this? Why do YOU stand here with the flag?”

His responses made my heart feel a little lighter with everything that was on my mind.

“I do this because I want to live in the now, and I want to be aware of it, and I want to notice others being aware of it. To be alive is to be lucky.” - Larry Singleton

I am lucky to be alive, awake, aware, at the very minimum.

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December 20th 2014

Austin, Texas

~ “Home” for the holidays ~

 

I can't believe its almost Christmas. 5 days, really? I got myself a present this year and it feels nice. A place to call home, a bed to sleep in, and a roof over my head. Christmas in Texas never felt so... real.

 

 

 

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December 21st 2014

Austin, Texas

~ Piece of my haven ~

 

“I'm sure most of us remember being a kid and you have all of this endless time where two weeks before Christmas feels like ten years. I used to go to bed to try and go to sleep to try and make it go faster."

- Andrea Arnold

 

 

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December 22nd 2014

Austin, Texas - 6th St

~ New Found Friend ~

I met yet another awesome native of Austin. I was walking down 6th st, had a destination, but not an important one. I read Lakey's sign and we both had a laugh. He started to realize that he wanted to live the way he saw fulfilling, drawing pieces of the creativeness he held in his head and heart.

I sat down right next to him on the sidewalk, he and I chatted for a few. He had been traveling in and out of Austin for a few years, drawing in different states and their neighborhoods, cities, and sidewalks. We hung out a bit more and I learned that I found a new friend.

Lakey sells his artwork on the streets, and loves it.(He actually sold the one on top of his suitcase!) We talked about the romanticized thought of traveling when we were younger, and how we just do it now.

Keeping the dream alive is important to us both, and if your not doing whats important, what are you living for?

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December 23rd 2014

Austin, Texas

~ Happy Hanukkah replaced Merry Christmas ~

Last night I was invited to a Hanukkah party. For some reason, I was never surrounded by a lot of Jewish people or culture. Now that I am in Austin, with no family or close friends around for the holiday season, I thought why not learn about something different from usual. 

I learned that this was the last night of Hanukkah, which marks the day on which the great miracle of oil occurred. The menorah was lit from the left side to the right, while a blessing is being narrated.  There were the traditional dreidel's there to spin around, but the gambling began and ended with a dice game called three's.

There were of course drinks and jokes to be had, and it wasn't your grandmothers typical 8th day of Hanukkah celebration. All in all, best Hanukkah I have ever had.

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December 24th 2014

Austin, Texas - 6th St

~ Grateful Giving ~

As I was taking a photo of a building on 6th st, I was kindly offered a sandwich by these two guys on the street, who were behind me. They had just gifted a bag of food, and thought to share a snack with someone, and that someone was me.

They have a few pups to feed, along with feeding themselves, and this is what had taken me back by their generosity, and I didn't deny them. We ate a snack together, and I learned a bit about them. They were both doing their thing in Austin for the holidays, had been posting videos of their travels on youtube, and, are some awesome musicians who compliment each other with their music.

We passed the guitar around, and shared a few songs, and a few jokes.

Someone that looks like they themselves, have hardly anything to offer, but offered what they had to a stranger, goes in my book as a good person. Someone doing what they can, and MORE.

From this, it made me start to think of what I can be offering others, even though I don't have much to give. I can do something, which is better then nothing.

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December 25th 2014

Austin, Texas

~ Gift of Presence ~

A random Christmas it was. I spent it with someone who knew a mutual friend, although this mutual friend was barely a friend to either of us, and another I met on the streets a week previously. 

I asked for a random Christmas, and I sure got it. In the best way. I didn't open one gift, and it felt great. I got the gift pf presence, instead of the gift of presents. 

“Christmas is not as much about opening our presents as opening our hearts.” ~Janice Maeditere 

 

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December 26th 2014

Austin, Texas - Downtown

~ Always Restless~


Ive been in Austin now for a little of 2 weeks now, and I have been able to recognize the similar feeling I had when I lived in Downtown Seattle. I feel as if my being is never restive, I almost always want to go explore, to take photos of cities, events and people. 

While I am exploring, I forget that I have content that is just adding up. The other part of me being in Austin is showing people what Austin is about. I need to find that small balance of relaxing, resting, recharging. 

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December 27th 2014

Austin, Texas. 

~ Enjoy it, while it lasts~

When I got to Austin, things were stressful. VERY stressful. I had wanted to sit, be still, and reflect upon the journey I had taken on the road. Going to Texas was just going to be a mini trip.

The last 6 months deserved my attention, with a stress free, reflection process. I didn't want anymore plane rides, I didn't want to be “on the go”, or to run with the wind. My being wanted to stay put and become still. Mentally and physically. My mind had become futile at this point.

I had the best summer in my life, and now it was becoming Winter, and I hadn't been able to post process. I didn't know when or where I would find the time or space to do so.

After a few weeks here, I am a bit more settled in. I am now able to relax, sleep in a bed, drink coffee from a coffee pot, and if I even wanted to, possibly read a book. I now have had that chance to think about the 'recent' past, and its been nice to write it down, to share a story of adventure and travel, and to not feel tired and exhausted from it.

I am back to living in the now, as much as I can be, because I will always take “Enjoy it while it lasts” as a literal term in my everyday life.

“The past is like using your rear-view mirror in the car it’s good to glance back and see how far you've come but if you stare too long you’ll miss what’s right in front of you”

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December 28th 2014

Austin, Texas.-  Zilker Park - Trail of Lights - Moon Tower

~ A Teachable Moment~

This year, I didn't see family for any of the holidays. I hear a lot of the same responses, the "Awhh" of sadness, but, to be honest, I loved being away from the celebrations this year.I needed space away from the people who make me feel a bit crazy while I'm back home. The quote below is what saved my mentality and guilt this holiday season.

"I had a great teacher in India, who said to me, “If you think your spiritual, and evolved, and enlightened, go home for Christmas and see how it goes”. And actually, what he said to me was, here's how you need to regard these people who you love and who challenge you. You know in AA when they say “How come your family knows how to push your buttons?”, because they INSTALLED them. They know where they are because they put them in you. These are the greatest spiritual teachers of your life, and when you go into these situations where you feel your back going up and your bristling, watch it, because this is an opportunity to have a real spiritual lesson, where it counts, where the rubber meets the road,and that's that feeling when you start to get it in your stomach, it says “this is a teachable moment, what am I being asked to learn here? Patience? Dignity? Boundaries? Generosity? Compassion? Leaving?” It might be. And that same monk said to me, “We have an obligations to love everybody in the world, but some people we must love from a safe distance” - Elizabeth Gilbert

VIDEO HERE: http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2014/11/21/elizabeth-gilbert-advice-life-you-want_n_6201002.html

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December 29th 2014

Austin, Texas

~ New Years Inspiration~

As the New Year approaches, I have been thinking about what kind of resolution do I want for myself? What are the things I want to get rid of? What can fill the space with the things I don't need? What can I start doing to help others? How can I become the best version of me possible? I made a list, and these are the top three that stick out.

1. Writing my book.
2. Continue to write my book
3. Start and stop over thinking about writing this book

Just like the movie “Julie and Julia”, I feel as if I am playing the role of Julie, and Elizabeth Gilbert is taking the role of Julia Child.

 

(BLOG post about it here ---> http://www.brieisrestless.com/reflecting-the-now/2014/12/30/the-julia-to-my-julie 

It's because of her outlook on her journey, her advice and poise on life, that I continue to be inspired by Liz. Her everyday writing gets me wanting to write, which is the fire to my passion right now.

Another year is coming to and end. I did what I set out to do in 2014. After quitting my job, giving away my stuff, and leaving my little loft in the city, I did what I wanted to do. I went to explore and experience. Now that I have had to process a bit of it, its time to crank out the coffee and get to work. 

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December 30th 2014

Austin, Texas -. Zilker Park

 

~ Refresh ~

This time as the New Year approaches, I have started to think about what kind of refresh button do I want to push?

I think there is something so beautiful, waking up the morning of the New Year. I see an ora that just sits upon us, this is an ora of good light and good intention. 

We are to be reminded that we are still human, we frequently make mistakes for ourselves. I think that it's a beautiful thing that we should get a repentance day, one to remind us that we should strive to be the best version of ourselves that we can imagine us to be. 

“Change does not roll in on the wheels of inevitability, but comes through continuous struggle. And so we must straighten our backs and work for our freedom. A man can't ride you unless your back is bent.” ` ~ Martin Luther King, Jr.

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December 31st 2014

Austin Texas - The Bat Bar -6th St

~ 14 Hours to go ~

Not lets not be too serious here. This is a night of celebration, so lets get the regrets out of the way before the clock strikes 2015. Choose what they are wisely.

“I hope that in this year to come, you make mistakes. Because if you are making mistakes, then you are making new things, trying new things, learning, living, pushing yourself, changing yourself, changing your world. You're doing things you've never done before, and more importantly, you're doing something.” ~ Neil Gaiman